Silence Me

Today,for the whole day
I dint talk much since the morning
Im so stressed with a lot of thing
especially about "her"
Recently,im having a lot of trouble in school
Myself, Librarian board, exam result and many more
Maybe this is why i keep silent for the whole day

Early in the morning,
Joely came to school alone
Dunno why,i feel like want to avoid from her
Maybe is because i want to be alone
At last,i decided to sit with her at the foyer
She do realized bout my attitude
And she asked me am i ok or not
Im glad someone finally care bout my feeling
I really dont expect people to care bout what happen to me
But i like to care bout my friends
I always want them to be happy no matter what and how
But,it is just that I dont like to talk something about myself to my friends
I hate to do that
I love to be alone even though i dont like it
But if i really need friends to talk bout it,i will always find Joely
She is my only friend who always listen to my problem

She know what happen between me and "her"
And she asked me whether im fine or not
But dunno why,i lie to her
I feel like i want to told her everything bout my feeling
But i told her that im fine
I just want to keep silence for the whole day

The whole day i dint speak a word out from my mouth
Except if situation need me to open my mouth,i will have to do it
I keep silence for the whole day by forcing myself to do Kumon Worksheet
Finish the whole day just by doing my Worksheet
I keep doing the worksheet so that i doesnt need to think bout "her"
Am i stupid enough for that?
Am i too naive?

Can Someone??

To all "lovely" human in this world and also all the ASSBAG + SCUMBAG who is hiding in the world,
Just want to tell you that Im Back From Blogging!!!!
I had abandoned this blog for 3 months because i wanted to do it.
It is in one of my plan.
In this 3 months,i had done many things and also had experience some sweet,sour,bitter and salty memories.
But i doesnt want to share with you all what i had experience last 3 months because i know U guys wont care bout "berita lama".

Im now not in a good mood.
Will not have the ending for it.
This is my 3rd time in my whole life feeling so disappointed and sad because of ONE word,which
is

LOVE

Have u ever experience this kind of thing?
When u give a present to someone that u admired?
But u received back the present after a few days??

Is her birthday
I decided to give her a present
I try to force Chee Leong to have an agreement with me
I ask him to share the present with me
The reason for doing that is to make sure she wont know that im the one who admired her
I just want her to think that the present is as a sign of our friendship
This might be the last year i will be facing her
I just want to have a happy memory with her
I just want her to always remember my name, my face, my voice and the most important,ME in the future
Chee Leong agree to help me
Thx to him for willing to sacrifice himself for me
The day finally come
I had wondering for the whole day
"Should i give her the present by myself or ask Chee Leong to accompany me so that she wont think too much??"
I keep bugging Chee Leong for the whole day
And he keep fooling with me by telling me that he want to share the present with me but refuse to do it after that.
Finally,i made my 1st move
I gave her the present before the "rehat"
Well,everything is fine when she say thanks for the present
I feel so happy because i had finally gave her the present
School ended at 1.45p.m
I went up to library to attend a librarian meeting
And stay there after the meeting
I as usual,make some joke with her by telling her that there is a few amazing thing in a piece of RM1
We spent our time in library by searching the "amazing" thing in the money
I feel happy when she smile
I love to see people smile especially when he/she is someone that are very special for me
Duty time is over and she have to go back
So,i said goodbye to her
Do U all see??Everything look so fine on that day and im glad she is having a wonderful day for her Birthday

The day after her birthday,she dint come to school because of some reason
Im not sure what is it,but i dint ask someone much bout her
That day is quite busy for me
I helped Joely in her Ice Blended business for Hari Koperasi
It was a tired day for me.

On the next day,everything had change
As usual,i wait for them outside the school and she finally arrived
Walk together to the foyer with her and her friend
But,something bad happen
She suddenly call me while she holding the present tat is from me
She pass the present back to me and told me that she had discussed with her friend about it and she know that i admired her
I totally stunned at the moment
I try my best to keep myself calm
I try my best to keep telling her tat the present is just a normal birthday present tat is given by a friend and THAT IS,no other meaning
She refused to listen to me and forced me to take back the present
I cant do anything but just have to take back the present
Im totally lost in the moment.Dont know what im doing too
Im wondering around the hall and keep thinking "WHY THE HELL THIS KIND OF THING WILL HAPPEN??"
I cant control myself and finally,i just left the present on the stage
I very hate the present at tat time
I feel that im totally a loser and i dont deserve to hold tat present anymore
I left it on the stage and finally,the present disappeared
It seems that there is an ASSBAG took the present
Im totally upset after the present disappeared
I suddenly feel so regret for my act
I shouldn't left the present
I should keep it
The whole day im emo-ing
Totally no mood till now
Only Juliet noticed that
And finally tell everything to Juliet
Thx for my dear Juliet
She do helped me alot
But im still emo-ing and keep thinking "Why she did that to me??"
After school,i went to library
I keep asking Kak Adza bout her opinion in my problem
I had asked Rebecca too bout my problem when i went to JJ with her
Thx to everyone that care about me
I finally realize that girl are so cruel
My heart is still hurt because of her
What should i do?
Im very disappointed now
Can someone please cheer me up?

No mood...

no mood to write blog today...
feel sad of something...
really really no mood...
that's all.....

Hmmm...

Damn...i just found something in the Library Week organization....
We had been lead by all girl...
Damn...From Project Leader till Treasurer,all are girl....
I wont let this happen...trust me...i will lead my own pemberontakan.....
Today,nothing else i want to say...
im quite busy and no mood to write blog for today...
so,good bye....
Hope you guys have a nice day....

No Title...

Yar...the blog for today wont have any title...
because i dunno want to put what title...XP
Early in the morning,i reach school and wait for Joely and the gang...
Alright...today im quite boring in class...
Because it is raining day....and also suddenly i sakit perut....
For whole day i been sakit perut...damn...
After school,as usual,i lepak in library with rahmat....
but since Pn Azizah is not in her bilik kerja, so me, rahmat and nizam go lepak in the canteen...
After finish our dailies stuff in canteen( makan and sembahyang for rahmat ) ,
I just found out my name in a list that Pn Pengetua tampal on the notice board for academic...
Damn...i just became 1 of the school target for 7A's in SPM exam this year...
This is sux...the Urus Setia Peperiksaan target me to get at least 7A's in my SPM...
I hate that....my result are damn bad and they target me to get that kind of result??
Shit!!! Shit!!! Shit!!!!
Anyway,just forget about the damn stupid thing....
After that,i walk around the whole school and finally i decided to go to the Bilik Sejarah...
Faiz is there with his debate team...
I watched Faiz training....And he is very good....Im sure he will win for the competition....
We go back home at 6.30p.m...
And now im online for 3 hours....
Im leveling my mafia account....
And i did it...
March 24 2009, 9:24:06 am New!You just gained a level
Haha...now im in level 105...
hmm...i have to stop now...
So,hope u guys enjoy my crapping for today...
Peace out again....

Back To School!!!

Finally...
Is school time...
Quite happy becoz can go back to school to meet my friends and teachers...
Arrive at school on 6.20 a.m as usual...
Today school got Minggu PPDA a.k.a Minggu Program Pencegahan Dadah...
So, of course there will be a majlis perasmian...
Early in the morning,Pn Kang ask me to help her do something....
Angkat meja and take 40 plastics bag from bilik UBK...
Milo King help me too....
Later on,perhimpunan start...
After perhimpunan tamat, the majlis perasmian bermula...
2 VIP came....i heard Chen Liong said one is like Mario and another one is like Martin....
And it is true... XP
The majlis habis at dunno what time...
We all masuk kelas...
Milo run away coz he saw Zainuddin check rambut....
Today our class din study much...
1st period is Chemistry...by En Azhar....
And,physic for today is quite fun...our class have 17 people and only 4 people go to the lab...
I still remember what Pn Maziah wrote in the buku kawalan...
Pang Zhi Chuan,Lim Chee Leong,Bainun dan Amira (pelajar ini sahaja yang turun ke makmal,manakala yang lain tidak turun walaupun telah dipanggil beberapa kali...17/21 pelajar ponteng...)
After,physic is Bm...and after Bm is English...
quite boring when English teacher, Cik Khadijah come in....
She give us a damn long grammar exercise....
1.45 p.m balik rumah...
but for me, is time for me to lepak at my third home, library with rahmat....
we chatting with Pn Azizah as usual...
Miss her alot...XD
we talking crap together in her bilik kerja...
And of coz, Vadhana get bully by me....kesian...
We all discussing about the Library Week...and i just found out that my sis,Michelle need to train for the NGO kawad for 2 weeks, everyday from 10a.m to 4p.m...
This is definitely crap...She need to handle for the bahagian pameran....
So,maybe i will take over her job...
Sis,dun worry...i will try to help you....XD
So,4p.m Pn Azizah need to go home alone...me and rahmat teman her to JJ...
After that, we take our bus,T327 and balik rumah....
and now, peace out...

Last Day of Holiday...

Finally...
I had been waiting for a week...
Finally i can go back to school and met my friends and teacher...
Cant wait lar....
Damn the bloody time...So slow like hell...
Hehe...
As usually for today,
My damn banner not yet finish
But,at least i start to move my hand and leg to draw it...
But,i just draw it in a piece of paper only...
Not in the A3 size paper...
So,i plan to finish it tonight...
Btw,today is my best friend's birthday...
So,Happy Birthday to Syamil...
Alright...im done for today....
So,peace out...XP
lol